Depression

Depression to me is like a deep dark pit that once you have reached bottom there is no escape.
At first began to feel yourself sliding into the shadows and then complete isolation from life.
Things begin to lose their color.
yellows of the sunshine, and blues of the sky fade to a grey and bleak shadow that seems to ovewhelm me.
I can no longer see or hear things that are pleasing to me anymore.
Dark thoughts of fear and failure dwell within my mind almost constantly.
I feel numb to the world and people around me.
I want to be left alone because it takes so much work to hide the true pain and sadness I am feeling.
The guilt for not being able to handle simple conversations.
It is so hard and exhausting to pretend with people that I am ok when in fact I have spiraled downward into what I call THE PIT.

It is deep, dark, lonely and inescapable for me sometimes.